Middle-age Liberation

Vinita Agrawal

 

In the courtyard, I stand

under the rising shell of a moon,

its pale glow, a mirror

to the self I’ve shed.

 

I bathe in its gleam,

balance in the pivot

of light and dark,

and learn to love

the in-between.

 

I stand there, in the craters

of many abandonments, thinking:

Liberation is not always beautiful,

not always kind.

Sometimes it is the sound

of something giving way,

the weight of years

finally too much to bear.

 

A quiet collapse,

form no longer bound

to the sky or the earth.

No one weeping, no one cheering—

the world simply moving on,

tires rolling over the remains of a life,

dust rising to kiss

the windshields of passing cars.

 

At last

a new room for new nests, new wings,

for the sky to stretch itself—

wide and unburdened.

 

Liberation is not the breaking

of the walls, it is the plant

growing quietly

in the cracks left behind.

Not the absence of heaviness,

but the courage to rise

despite it.